“You’ve just been recalibrating.” Those were some of the most powerful words I have heard this year. I was finally able to see that all I’ve struggled with the past few months was not about failure but rather about recalibrating. Talk about dark clouds moving out and the sun shining!
I am extremely hard on myself. I know those who know me well are saying out loud, “No kidding!” It has been a life-long struggle, and though I have made some inroads, the reality is I always expect way too much from myself. See, for me by now I was to have Discovering Me written, ready for an editor and off to be published. After all I’ve had over a year to get it done, and I left my job to specifically pursue writing and speaking. So what’s up?
I will tell you what’s up… I was recalibrating! I was sharing my last year with someone. You know the story… I quit my job, got married, left California and everyone and everything I’ve ever known, and moved to Utah to live with a new husband! Three major life changes all at once. This new friend simply pointed out that my life was like a tuning fork. I hit the fork really hard with all my changes and it has been reverberating ever since. When I officially landed in my new environment May 1, 2016, the tuning fork nearly exploded with sound.
In time the reverberating calms and the tuning fork is at peace – no more ringing, no more distraction, no more lack of direction, no more disturbance in the force. So whether recalibrating or reverberating or both, the point is navigating my new life has taken months instead of the days I unrealistically planned. And that’s okay and to be expected!
We never know how something will truly impact us until it’s in our face. Well, clearly the changes hit me much harder than I could have ever imagined. This is not a complaint, rather a statement of fact. It is really important for me to see – and admit – that things have been hard, understand that recalibrating was and continues to be necessary, and that Megan the tuning fork was struck significantly and it takes time for that reverberation to quiet.
Nothing about the last seven months has been a waste. It has been an adjustment.
I should invest in a sign that reads, “One moment please, I am recalibrating.”
Others may adjust more quickly – good for them. I am not them and that was not me. I am finally okay with that being my truth. I always talk about extending grace to others… now it’s time for me to extend grace to myself. Joyce Meyer famously says, “You are no surprise to God.” He knew that I would need to recalibrate. He knew 2016 would be the most amazing and difficult year all rolled into one. He also knows what lies ahead and He is getting me ready to be calm, peaceful, and focused to be all that He needs me to be in the days, weeks, months and years ahead.
If you are someone who is going through a rough patch, stop and consider that you just might be recalibrating. All of us will have tuning fork moments in our lives. What’s key is allowing ourselves the time to reverberate. We can never operate 100% all time. We are human. It’s just not possible. Accept that fact… I am accepting it too. But the beauty in all of this is God. I take comfort in this truth,“Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today and forever.” Hebrews 13:8 (TLB). Though we change, though we recalibrate, He NEVER changes. He operates on all cylinders all the time… and He wants to be everything we need when we can’t even get out of bed!
Embrace who you are today. Punishing yourself for not being who you want or think you need to be doesn’t accomplish anything. Trust me, I have had a lot of practice the last few months. It’s exhausting to be frustrated with yourself and your lack of accomplishment. So let go, let God, and trust that when it’s time your tuning fork will stop reverberating and you will move forward freely and renewed.
“But He has said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you [My lovingkindness and My mercy are more than enough—always available—regardless of the situation]; for [My] power is being perfected [and is completed and shows itself most effectively] in [your] weakness.’ Therefore, I will all the more gladly boast in my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ [may completely enfold me and] may dwell in me.” 2 Corinthians 12:9 (AMP)