I know, why would I put my age out there. I figure why not. I am totally embracing my final year in this decade known as the 30s. In truth, I am very excited to welcome the 40s… but I am happy to wait another 364 days before officially doing so. And as my dad teased, technically today starts the first day of my 40th year. Very true, and I deserved that comment given I said the same thing to him as he was approaching 60! You reap that which you sow!
Birthdays are always a time of reflection. When I think back on the past year I am in awe. God orchestrated some pretty incredible things and I could not be more grateful. All during my year of 38 I managed to get engaged, quit my job to pursue a passion, got married, went to Prague and Vienna, moved to Utah, adopted the cutest kitten ever, and unexpectedly started a part-time job that I absolutely love. Phew! It was quite the year, one I will never forget.
Often you hear people say they are not where they thought they would be at 30, 40, 50, etc. Thankfully, other than wanting to really lose the weight for good by 40 – hence the close up photo and not one from afar – I don’t have those pressures. Sure I plan, sure I have goals, but really I am reminded that life is so much sweeter if you can live in the here and now. I am striving to do so more and more. In the Lord’s Prayer it says, “Give us this day our daily bread,” Matthew 6:11, AMP. Not tomorrow’s bread, not next week’s or next year’s bread, but today’s. God gives us exactly what we need for TODAY. Whether that be grace, mercy, love, support, reprimand… only what we need for today. We are not promised tomorrow so worrying about it doesn’t make a whole lot of sense.
I am exactly where I need to be for today. That doesn’t mean it always feels good, or that I always feel good, but I can take comfort in a Heavenly Father Who is managing all this stuff. That includes my 40th year and weight loss!
No matter where you are in your life, be encouraged. You may not be where you want to be or where you hoped you’d be, but you are right where you are and for a reason. Embrace it. And if it sucks, ask God to show you what needs to change. I am finally learning that trying to lose weight – Ken always says that you want to remove weight, because if you lose it you could find it again – on my own is futile. God wants to walk that journey with me. He is God. He just might know what to do better than I ever can or will!
So I am looking forward to being 39 and being comfortable right where I am. Even if that means I still haven’t started the book. It will come.
Much love to everyone for your support and encouragement over the past year. Can you believe that I started Discovering Me on July 17, 2015? Wow, how time flies.